Yes, today is Resurrection Sunday. Again, I struggled to wake up this morning, but nothing was going to stop me from going to church with my family. After laying in bed for 40 minutes, I decided to get up and get ready quickly.
Yesterday, I did end up spending time in my hammock reading One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. If you ever get a chance to read it, I would highly recommend it. She’s a very poetic writer and uses symbolism and analogies to help the reader feel how she feels. The author at the beginning of the book describes the despair felt after losing her baby girl in a tragic farming accident. In a series of events, she and her husband’s unbelief turns to belief as Jesus reveals Himself in the small things. These small things or “gifts” are what she names off every day on a list, creating a list of one thousand. The theme is finding contentment and joy ONLY in gratitude, in thanksgiving, in the word, “eucharisteo”. Just what I need to be reading right now when my temptation of discontent presses heavily on my heart.
Coming back to today, getting to church early, my family and I had the opportunity of walking around the church campus and seeing what the different buildings had to offer. Inside the biggest one was their cafeteria. Dozens of tables, booths, and chairs were filled with people all eating their breakfast while the blurred background noise of Dr. David Jeremiah was playing. Shocking for me that none of these people were quietly listening to the message. We continued to walk further into the cafeteria to find the bookstore. Surprisingly, this was small in size, being smaller than the one at my home church. At a table in front of me were lines of coloring journals. What catches my eye is this turquoise, pink floral journal with the word, “gratitude” on the front in baby blue letters. “A Prayer and Praise Coloring Journal”, I read out loud to myself. Sounds silly to me. Still, I admitted I wanted to buy it and of course my mom offers to buy it for me (yes, I am very grateful to her for that).
After attending the amazing service full of beautiful praise and a message that leaves you speechless, I was now excited to see what this journal had to say. I anxiously went through the journal to read what each page requested of me. As my parents were talking to each other about the green hills turning brown, I was thinking and pondering to myself what I would fill each page with.
Enjoying the rest of the day wasn’t difficult, but the now daunting task is in front of me. What will I fill each page with? What do I want to say? How long do I want to spend each day in this journal? When can I spend time writing in this journal? The answers I don’t have, but I end my day writing on the first page, “Friends love each other”. Whose names will I pray for on this page? Only God knows. For now, I end my blog post here.
36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?” 37 And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. 40 On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets.”