I go places and I almost feel his presence. I see a certain race and I think of him. I go to places we had gone before and I imagine him walking up to me to say hi. I see a certain type of car and I immediately think it’s him. I look. It’s not him. Someone that looks remotely like him makes my heart jump for a second. The moment quickly passes. Again, the temptation to feel lonely and feel a loss comes to me. It seems impossible to get passed this feeling.
Organizing a wedding with his fiance for a mutual friend makes it all harder. I see one text from her in our group messaging and I think of him. Nothing seems to bring me away from him. Once the wedding is over, will it all start to fade away? Will I really have to wait till August to find that out? —– Unfinished.