Yesterday I did a presentation on carpal tunnel, our last one for our American Sign Language class 4. Ended up being short and easy, 9 slides altogether (see below).
The moments before I felt anxious and excited. It’s so funny how I prepare myself and make myself ready for it, and then right before my presentation, I get anxious. I just don’t get it. I’ve been with most of these other students now for a year and I can’t see past my people pleasing. I want to please my teacher and get a good grade, but I also don’t want to fail in front of my peers. It’s incredible to me that I am so fallen, that I still mess up, that I’ve done so many presentations and I still get the same feeling beforehand and during. God says “Cast your anxieties on me because I care for you” and I never think in the moment to do so. How do I turn these feelings into trust? How do I change my mindset in a heartbeat? What can I do other than think of verses and pray for faithfulness in trust?
Really, I’m still sorting things out and learning day by day when those moments come. For now, I end with Matthew 6:25-34.
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?28 And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29 yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.