My parents gave me a few items that came from my twin sister’s house, one of them being an old journal full of my prayers and self-counsel. This one was on the last page that I wrote on. Thought I’d share it. The color and underlining are what it actually is in the journal.
Trial: S and I’s Break
What I need: Discernment, the ability to let go, peace, strength, love, joy, patience, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control.
An assurance that I am not alone, and I don’t have to be.
Luke 1:32-33, “He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. And the Lord God will give to Him the throne of his father David, and he will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of His kingdom there will be no end.”
Matthew 1:21b, “for he will save his people from their sins.”
Vs. 23, “Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and they shall call his name Immanuel” (which means, “God with us“).
Hm. It’s interesting looking back at this and seeing everything that I wrote. I wrote about an angry phone call I had with S back in February of 2014 while he was deployed, to my grandmother being in the mental hospital, not really knowing what to do. It’s crazy looking back and seeing all that happened that year, the special year of 2014. So much happened. S was deployed, I changed jobs, moved out (again), took care of grandma in her unstable state, and by the end broke up with S. Hm. The last few years have been full of various trials…but it’s good to be reminded that God is with me, that He is Immanuel, that He is Son of the most High. His kingdom will never end. He is the essence of the fruit of the Spirit. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I cannot have any of those things without the Spirit. He is good in showing me His goodness. He is good in showing me His faithfulness over the last few years. He is good in showing me His lovingkindness, His grace, and His mercy. Honestly, I can’t believe He has brought me to where I am today. It blows my mind. I had no idea back in 2014 that more was yet to come, and it’s good to see that His promises still remain the same today. There really is nothing like having a relationship with Jesus.