Blue Light

“You’re playing mind games.

You play with my mind!

But you always seem to mind when somebody plays along

You play’n mind games

It’s what you do best

And time and time again I fall for it I confess

You think you can sway me

You think you can win me over.

You think that you know me.

But you don’t. You don’t.

You think that you’re clever with your wit and your charm

You come on strong thinking I’ll fall into your arms

Well I don’t trust those smiling eyes or that flirty smirk

Don’t trust what you’re trying to do

It ain’t going to work

You think you can sway me

You think you can win me over

You think that you know me

But you don’t, you don’t, you don’t

You playin’ mind games

You play with my mind

But you always seem to mind when somebody plays along

You playin’┬ámind games

It’s what you do best

And time and time again I fall for it I confess

I confess

I confess

I confess” – Krista Marina

He plays mind games with me. My mind plays games with me. My mind sees a blue light on my phone to tell me he IM’d me, but it’s not really there. I check again. I wait. Nothing. The strangest feeling. Again, I’m mixed and jumbled. All day I’ve had the joy of just knowing I am God’s, and my salvation is in Christ. I’ll forget about him for a second and move on with my day. I will find joy in the things around me, such as fellow believers. It gets to the end of the day and I fall backwards. I go back and look at my phone looking for everything. I deleted our past IMs last night, so there’s nothing for me to look at again. I look at my phone across the room. No blue light. Nothing. My mind goes, “Oh well! God knows I needed this.” I pretend it doesn’t mean anything. It does, or does it not? I’m not really sure. What I will always be sure in is my salvation in Christ and how much more important it is. THAT is what brings me forward. No more mind games. No more blue light.

 

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